That's what many of us say on the first of January - and it isn't just about the after effects of New Year's Eve.
New Year is the traditional time for kicking old harmful habits, and resolving to stop causing further hurt to ourselves and others.
The Vajrasattva visualisation and meditation gives us a fresh start by purifying harmful, negative tendencies and states of mind.
The practice consists of visualising Buddha Vajrasattva (small - about 6 inches tall - not full-sized like a human) above the crown of our heads. He doesn't come from anywhere in particular, he just appears. We believe he is there but don't need detailed visualisations.
Vajrasattva purification relies upon the four opponent powers, which are...
3) Opponent force
Reliance helps pacify and weaken negative karma, it involves going for refuge and developing a mind of boddhichitta .
Any negative actions we have committed in the past were either towards objects of refuge, or towards sentient beings.
Negative actions against objects of refuge are purified by going for refuge. We go for refuge to Vajrasattva, regarding him as the synthesis of all objects of refuge.
Negative actions against sentient beings are purified by developing bodhicitta. We think of all living beings as precious and dedicate ourselves to their welfare, and to abandoning causing them suffering. We may wish to visualise that we are surrounded by all living beings and they are also purifying by relying on Vajrasattva.
We develop a sincere regret for all the harmful actions that we have performed against sentient beings. Regret is not the same as guilt. Guilt is a negative state of mind that increases confusion and self-hatred. It leads nowhere and functions only to weaken our will.
Regret, on the other hand, is an admission of our mistakes coupled with a positive intention to learn from them by not repeating them. In other words, we are performing a tantric transmutation by transforming our negative history into our future spiritual path.
The mantra is the opponent force that purifies the actual negativities. We can mentally or audibly recite the long or short mantras. When we are reciting we are requesting Vajrasattva to purify us.
We visualise a moon cushion at Vajrasattva's heart on which is the white letter HUM. Standing around this are the letters of the mantra. From the mantra white light rays and white nectar pour down and purify us from top to bottom, pushing out negativities. All dirty substances leave by lower orifices.
Negative karma leaves as dirty liquid. Mental and physical sicknesses leave as pus, blood, worms and other creepy-crawlies.
Then we feel completely clean, our body is just pure white light.
If we have a particular problem, we visualise that problem being expelled.
The fourth opponent power is the power of promise to gradually abandon harmful actions. We can't purify without making a promise to refrain. Promise purifies the tendency to repeat bad habits which harm ourselves and others. Promise plants the seeds of new tendencies which destroy old tendencies.
At this point we make a realistic promise to avoid negative actions. We don't make promises we can't keep, but make a determination to overcome all negative actions eventually.
Finally, Vajrasattva dissolves into us, and our body, speech and mind become inseparable from Vajrasattva.
We then dedicate the merit we have accumulated by practising the Vajrasattva purification to the happiness of all sentient beings.
Although we may joke about the after-effects of New Year's Parties, for some people alcohol is a year-long nightmare. The Alcoholics Anonymous 12 step program requires alcoholics to acknowledge they are helpless against their addiction until they go for refuge to a Higher Power.
For Buddhists, Vajrasattva is such a Higher Power who can help to break addicitions to alcohol, drugs, food etc
Wishing all sentient beings
Vajrasattva Mantra Song and Video